Family and Relationships, Health and Fitness, Random Thoughts

And So I Run

Running is hard.

It’s painful.

It’s slow.

It’s frustrating.

It’s soul sucking.

Every time I lace up my running shoes and head out the door I know that it’s going to hurt. The muscles ache. The ankle aches. The hips ache. The lungs ache. There aren’t many parts of my body that don’t ache when I run. So why do I do it? What drives me on? It’s very clear that it is not helping to transform my body like I had hoped. It isn’t helping me lose weight like I had hoped. So why the hell carry on with something that is so physically uncomfortable?

The answer is very easy. When I run my heart doesn’t hurt. The physical stress on my body shuts down ALL THE FEELINGS. So I run. I run to give myself a few moments of mental and emotional peace. Even if I can only make it 20 minutes before my body begs for respite, for at least those 20 minutes I feel at peace. And when I get home, I feel better. Like I can once again handle anything. Running is the only thing that frees my mind. I can ride my bike for 20 miles. I can swim across the lake and back. I can go for a nice long walk. But none of those things gives me the emotional reprieve that running does.

And so I run!



3 thoughts on “And So I Run”

  1. I so get this post! When my body is busy, my head is quiet. It’s very meditative. I miss it enormously.

  2. Funny, I’m the exact opposite. I do some of my best thinking on runs. Well, thinking and hand gesturing like a lunatic, but we’ll just focus on the thinking.

    1. Oh, there is gesturing! I have my music on and will sometimes throw my gate completely off balance with a sudden gyration to the beat of the song! It’s frightening to behold, I’m sure! 🙂

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